Monday, October 12, 2009

"...if you can’t handle me at my worst, you don’t deserve me at my best."



I've lost quite a bit of weight recently. Suddenly I fit into a pair of Kiki's corduroys that I couldn't even button a few months ago. They're actually a little too big on me now. Plus I cracked a weight threshold this weekend that I haven't seen in a long, long time. I wish I could post it here, but I'm embarrassed to admit that I'm still ashamed of how much I weigh. Too many years of being criticized and judged, I guess. Ah, well.

I've been working out a lot, it's true, but I think it's also because my meds completely kill my appetite. I'm trying really hard to be healthy about this, but usually I'll have a couple of frozen waffles plain for breakfast and then forget to eat until after I get off of work -- and even then I'll keep forgetting to go have something to eat. Making meals ahead of time in Tupperware really helps. Being able to just grab a meal out of the fridge makes it a lot less likely that I'll get distracted while preparing a meal on the spot. Also, we are literally too poor to buy much food these days, so yay for being broke?

I feel good, though. I even get on the bike for about 10 minutes when I first wake up because it loosens up my muscles and helps with my backaches.

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